Fyodor Dostoevsky

Beauty is a terrible and awful thing! It is terrible because it has not been fathomed and never can be fathomed, for God sets us nothing but riddles. Here the boundaries meet and all contradictions exist side by side. I am a cultivated man, brother, but I’ve thought a lot about this. It’s terrible what mysteries there are! Too many riddles weigh men down on earth. We must solve them as we can, and try to keep a dry skin in the water. Beauty! I can’t endure the thought that a man of lofty mind and heart begins with the ideal of the Madonna and ends with the ideal of Sodom. What’s still more awful is that a man with the ideal of Sodom in his soul does not renounce the ideal of the Madonna, and his heart may be on fire with that ideal, genuinely on fire, just as in his days of youth and innocence. Yes, man is broad, too broad, indeed. I’d have him narrower. The devil only knows what to make of it! What to the mind is shameful is beauty and nothing else to the heart. Is there beauty in Sodom? Believe me, that for the immense mass of mankind beauty is found in Sodom. Did you know that secret? The awful thing is that beauty is mysterious as well as terrible. God and the devil are fighting there and the battlefield is the heart of man. But a man always talks of his own ache. Listen, now to come to facts.

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  1. shinichi Post author

    by ドストエフスキイ


    美──美という奴は恐ろしい怕かないもんだよ! つまり、杓子定規に決めることが出来ないから、それで恐ろしいのだ。なぜって、神様は人間に謎ばかりかけていらっしゃるもんなあ。美の中では両方の岸が一つに出合って、すべての矛盾が一緒に住んでいるのだ。俺は無教育だけれど、この事はずいぶん考え抜いたものだ。実に神秘は無限だなあ! この地球の上では、ずいぶん沢山の謎が人間を苦しめているよ。この謎が解けたら、それは濡れずに水の中から出てくるようなものだ。ああ美か! その上俺がどうしても我慢できないのは、美しい心と優れた理性を持った立派な人間までが、往々聖母の理想を懐いて踏み出しながら、結局悪行の理想をもって終るという事なんだ。いや、まだまだ恐ろしい事がある。つまり悪行の理想を心に懐いている人間が、同時に聖母の理想をも否定しないで、まるで純潔な青年時代のように、真底から美しい理想の憧憬を心に燃やしているのだ。いや実に人間の心は広い、あまり広過ぎるくらいだ。俺は出来る事なら少し縮めてみたいよ。ええ畜生、何が何だかわかりゃしない、本当に!理性の目で汚辱と見えるものが、感情の目には立派な美と見えるんだからなあ。一体悪行の中に美があるのかしらん?……


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